so, a bit of background. about a day ago, my roommate got super drunk (no surprise there, two alcoholics as roommates makes this happen CONSTANTLY) with my neighbor, the one i talked about in in an earlier post, had brought over some vodka, and the two of them just drank it without offering me any. no problem, i didnt want to hang out with them anyway.
later, they came back and asked me to help get their ps3 working and i said i would do it. so i go over there and theres something like a party going on. i pretty much present as female all the time now, but most of that time is spent inside the house, emphatically not in the presence of a room full of gangsta culture guys. if you know my history, you could probably guess that i fixed that ps3 on the verge of panic.
nothing bad happened, they even shared some alcohol and weed with me. of course, my roommate was over there too, pretty much plastered and saying… racially insensitive things… while i stare very intently at the menu screen with that controller in hand thinking to myself, “please just shut the fuck up, jesus, you cant possibly be this stupid! any one of these guys could do whatever the hell they want to us and barely break a sweat, you fucking moron!” needless to say, i got up and tried to convince her to leave with me. one of the guys there helped me convince her, i felt a weird mixture of shame and relief when we finally left. shame for just assuming that i was in danger of sexual assault just because they were a different skin color, and relief that i got my idiot roommate out of there before anything got ugly.
so we walk in the door and she immediately trips over the sofa, falling on the floor head-first. here’s the part that is relevant to the question: i picked her up and carried her to her bed, she was unable to stand, walk or pretty much do anything without busting her ass. she’s close to 170lbs, not too hard to move her, right? fucking WRONG, my shoulders are sore as hell right now. mind-over-matter allowed me to do it, but there was a cost that morning. not that im complaining, i knew intellectually that this would happen, now i know it HAS happened. im just now dealing with the implications of it. this means the ‘mones are working. it also means that i will not ever have to help move furniture again, fuck THAT noise!
updated my photos, a pic of me with my new glasses. i like being able to see again, heh… im such a fucking narcissist…